1) you talk too much for somebody who's had enough failure. you always make things harder for us. i won't say that i hate you. but i am positively sure that i do not love you. really.

2) you should be stronger by now. you have to try. it might not be ok now, but you have to believe that it's gonna be because it will be. i promise.

3) i am so glad that i got to rediscover my friendship with you. having you now, more than ever, is one of the things i am so grateful for. thank you for giving me another chance. i love you. :)

4) i used to think that you're someone that i could admire. but nooooo. then again, you prove me wrong. you're too self absorbed, too proud, and too weird. i think you're just insecure and afraid to admit it. you're a loser, dork. not to mention, an idiot too. you don't impress me. at all. you're coming close to my "hate" category.

5) i sincerely appreciate your concern, and i understand that you want nothing but the best for me. if it happens that i disappoint you, i'm sorry. i hope you'd still accept me and my decision.

6) that was not my intention. we're both victims in this story. you may not believe this, but really, i am sorry.

7) my friendship with you is one of the greatest surprises of my life. no matter how opposing we seem to be, i know you get me. and i think i get you. you're a geek. and i hate/love every inch of your geekiness. yah. that's what we do. hate and love each other. :)

8) stop acting like you're little miss perfect. i don't understand why you are the way you are. irritatingly fake. irritatingly stupid. don't you get it? i gave up pretending to be interested in whatever it is that you have to say. argh.

9) if you think i am sorry for YOU, no, i am not. you should know better.

10) i guess you are well aware of how much i love being angry at the world with you. haha. i miss murdering people in our conversations. it's so easy doing it with you! hahaha. i am 100% pure bitch when i'm with you. yes. i know you love me too. :)

11) unlike number 10, it's not fun being bad with you. your evilness is really evil! there's no goodness in it. it's not funny. i feel all the guilt when you start talking. you're not nice.

12) you're too vain. it's nothing to be proud of. i swear, i am so embarrassed for you.

13) you judged me too soon. i really don't get it. what i think you can offer me is not even half of what i could offer you. sigh. oh well. i really don't have anything to prove to you. sigh. tsk tsk. i think i pity you. (shakes head)

14) what you did was unnecessary and uncalled for! don't you think you're too old for that? shame on you! and don't go walking with your head held up high. what you did was a complete humiliation on your character. go hide under a table. that's where you belong.

15) i admire your courage. i am so proud of you. i could not have done it as beautifully and as gracefully as you have.
p.s.
i miss you. when can i see you?

16) hindi ka parin ba nagbabago?! my goodness. ganyan ka nalang ba talaga forever?!

17) i have so much trust and respect for you. you never judge me, and you never give up on me (although i know that you wish i'd listen to you more). you'll never know how much i appreciate the depth of our relationship. i hate to admit it, but i want to be just like you when i am older. i hate to admit this too, but i love you.:) i really do, in a very funny kind of way.

18) even if we don't get to talk much, i still think you're my angel. i miss you and i love you. :)

19) your passion for life is soooo admirable. i am so glad that you opened your doors for me. working for you is an honor. i've learned so much from you, love and life in particular. thank you for inspiring me when i was completely lost. thank you for making me believe again. :)

20) you and you. i'll consider you two as one. thank you. you made it so clear. i could say that i somehow owe part of my self worth to you. i couldn't have done it without you. i can never thank you enough. i love you both.

i am SORRY.

that was so embarassing.

gaaaah.

me: hey andy! wru?!

andy: sta.rita

me: let's throw a halloween ball.

andy: yes yes yes

me: i'm bored andy. i need to keep busy.

andy: i have 3 projects for you. text you sched for meeting this week.

me: reaaaaallllllllyyyyy? i am so in loooooooooooove with you.

andy: a broadway night, launching of clark's race track and a fashion show for sm. i'm giving them all to you. text u sched.

me: woppeeee see yah!


at least there's something to look forward to. *sigh*

hubert: kaya nga mag move on na kayo parehas. magkaroon muna kayo nang sarili nyong buhay magiging ok un promise

bea: ok
bea: ok ok
bea: promise ah
bea: eh pano kung nababaliw nako ano gagawin ko?

hubert: mas marami kang magagawa para sa sarili mo n ma didiscover pa
hubert: eh di dadalhin ka namin sa mental hospital

1) Starting Time: 12:11am

2) First Name: bea

3) Nickname: bei, bey

4) School: DLSU (2007)

5) Check e-mail: everyday? well, almost.

6) Eyes: dark brown

7) Height: 5'3"

8) Siblings: 2 brothers and a sister

9) Ever been kissed: yes.

10) Have you been cheated on?: hmm. yes. i think? or no?

11) Ever missed school because it was raining?: yes.

12) Ever faked sick?: of course. :)

13) Kept a secret from any one?: yes

14) Had an imaginary friend?: no?

15) Wanted to hook up with a friend?: YES! haha.

16) Cried during a Flick?: yup. and i hated it.

17) Who is your "star crush"?: chace crawford.

18) Ever thought of animated characters as hot?: teehee. yes. :)


------------------FAVORITE--------------------
19) Drink: passion fruit flavored anything.

20) Food: fried chicken! haha!

21) Restaurant: cafe med!

22) Shampoo: sunsilk nako men.

23) Color: yellow, orange, red

24) Summer/Winter: winter

25) Phone or Online?: online.

26) Lace, silk or satin?: satin

27) Like anyone: nope. ay. ewan.


-----------DO YOU BELIEVE IN...------------
52) God/Devil: god, yes.

53) Love: yes

54) The Closet Monster: NO!

55) Heaven/hell: just heaven. :)

57) Superstitions?: nah.

58) Glass half empty or half full: half full :)

59) Who named you?: my parents?

58) Favorite quote?: "Love isn't about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is about airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons, giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there."

59) What is ur fav flower?: dasies. theyre nice!

60) What was the last thing that you said when u were online?: "bye!"

61) What are you most excited about RIGHT at this VERY moment?: my cousin's marriage proposal this saturday

62) Do you have a cellphone?: Yeap

63) What is right next to you?: bills bills bills

64) What is your computer desk made of?: laminate?

65) What was the last thing that you did?: planned a marriage proposal

66) Where do you want to go on your honeymoon?: Europe OR, tour the whole country.

67) Where do you want your wedding?: at a nice church or chapel.

68) Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?: haha. no answer.

69) How's the weather?: WEIRD.

70) What did you do last night?: drove to manila.

71) Thing that you find attractive about the opposite sex?: arms and butt. and chest.

72) How do YOU eat an Oreo?: i don't like oreo

73) All time favorite TV show: that 70's show!!!! and maybe grey's.

74) Dream vehicle?: i dont think i have one.

75) What do you want to be when you get older?: business tycoon. haha! and a stylist.

76) Favorite music?: alternative

77) 3 Favorite bands?: i can't care less

78) Favorite singer?: guh...

79) Favorite month?: December!!!!!!!! december december december!!!

80) Favorite days of the week?: Friday.

81) Favorite animal?: dogs and birds

82) What do you want to be remembered as?: i want to be remembered. period.

83) If you could change your name, what would it be?: sophia. or natalie.

84) Do u sleep with a stuffed animal?: no. though i used to.

85) The stupidest thing you have ever done: GAH.. too stupid to be shared.

86) First Son's (to be) name?: no name.

87) Husband/ Wife name?: i'm single

88) First daughter: sophia

89) How many children are you gonna have?: 2

90) You like scary or funny movies better?: funny

91) On the phone or in person?: in person

92) Lust or Love: I want both.haha.

93) If you could change something about yourself, what would it be?: secret.

94) Have any pets?: yes! kiko and birdie with no official name!

95) What job do you have now?: i'm running my boutique and working for my mom.

96) Who sent this to you?: got it from lj.

97) Do you have any regrets?: unfortunately, yes.

98) Your favorite songs?: follow through

99) Favorite movie?: my bestfriend's wedding. hahaha!

100) What are you doing this weekend?: set up my cousin's proposal and waste the rest of my weekend in anilao.

101) Do you want your friends to do this survey?: no.

102) What's the craziest thing you've done for money?: gamble?? i think.

103) Time Finished?: 2:42am

b: so what do i do with him?

m: you can't get it back! you don't do anything! you guys have had enough time to figure out whether you guys are gonna work out or not.

last monday, i had to go to the architect's office to give them my award notice and to sign some electrical plans for the store. he wasnt around but of course, he had a group of architects there working on some suff on their computers. i don't know exactly what happened, but i suddenly heard myself asking one girl, "architect kayo lahat dito?" and she said yes, and then i stupidly said. "wow first time ko makakita ng ganito kadaming architect together in one room!"

of course her reaction reminded me of how stupid i was at that moment.

this morning, i had to go to the accountant to fix some government papers. there were a lot of people in the office, and again, i found myself whispering to their messenger, "kuya, cpa sila lahat?" he gave me a look,
so i said "wow and dami pala c.p.a. dito noh?"

ang daming adults sa mundo.

i find you stupid.
and i have this urge of sharing your stupidity with my friends.
and i'm sure they'd agree that you're stupid.
they should.

because really, you are.

bobo ka.

Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there's a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I had my happiness. I don't want to believe it but, there is no man, Gilly. Only that moon. -sally owens

i told my architect my budget was 700k for consturcting the store. and now he tells me it's 1.5M. how do i know i'm getting the right price?

hassle.